This past week was like the week that wouldn’t end. Certain expectations of where I thought I’d be with my ever growing list of things to do before my last day of work and first day of grad school just didn’t happen leaving me in this weird combination of frustration and passiveness.
I think we all have certain expectations of where we think we’ll be at certain times of our lives. As I’m increasingly realizing, however, what we have planned for how our life to go isn’t always how it will go. I think sometimes I get so caught in things having to be done in a specific order that when that order is basically blown up I fall into a sort of passivity until I find myself balance again to move forward. However, just because I’m not where I thought I’d be in my life with current circumstances, doesn’t mean that I’m “doing life wrong”.
I like to think that life is like my room: organized chaos. Just because I can’t see the patterns of certain events in my life doesn’t mean that there isn’t some greater Truth. My mom keeps saying that things will work out the way God has planned them to, and though I internally cringe at that overused sentiment, I can’t find myself denying that it’s true. Things will work out and in the meantime, I’m immensely lucky that I’m even in a situation where even though my initial plans aren’t seeming to fall through, that I’m not completely without a paddle and I have an alternate plan that I can fall back on in the mean time.
Despite certain frustrations of the week, I am excited about the last final days of work. Do not get me wrong. I love my boss, co-workers, and the other people I work with in our larger office but I think it’s time for a change and I’m immensely happy to start grad school and really delve into a subject – counseling psychology – that I’ve been interested in since I was about 8 years old.
Things may seem messy and out of order now but I have no doubt that I’ll eventually find what I need.
“WHAT ARE YOU READING?”
For sixteen-year-old Mel Hannigan, bipolar disorder makes life unpredictable. Her latest struggle is balancing her growing feelings in a new relationship with her instinct to keep everyone at arm’s length. And when a former friend confronts Mel with the truth about the way their relationship ended, deeply buried secrets threaten to come out and upend her shaky equilibrium.
As the walls of Mel’s compartmentalized world crumble, she fears the worst–that her friends will abandon her if they learn the truth about what she’s been hiding. Can Mel bring herself to risk everything to find out?
In A Tragic Kind of Wonderful, Eric Lindstrom, author of the critically acclaimed Not If I See You First, examines the fear that keeps us from exposing our true selves, and the courage it takes to be loved for who we really are.”
A PODCAST YOU NEED TO LISTEN TO
The Intern was one of the first podcast that I listened to after starting my first job out of college. Instantly, I related Allison Behringer and her navigation through her new job even though what I was doing had nothing to do with the tech start-up world. I think we can all relate to that job where you feel like you’re in over your head, at least at the beginning.
Though the podcast doesn’t update on a regular schedule at all – it’s only negative point I have against it – it does deal with topics that any young professional might have like how to ask for a raise in salary. Behringer is so open and honest about having no idea at all what she’s doing at her current job and how to even run a podcast with no prior experience. It’s really refreshing and human in a format that I think Millennials – ugh, I hate that word but it fits – will totally get.
Check out the first episode here.
THE SONG I JUST KEEP REPEATING…
“HandClap” by Fitz and the Tantrums
Well, that’s all for now, folks! Until next time!
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